Depression is not
kind, depression makes a mockery of you being alive, depression makes
you wonder why you are alive but you are too apathetic to do
something about your being called alive.
become a badge of honor these days.
Sucks to say this
but the fact is that a large percentage of population who call their
condition as depression are not really depressed. They may be feeling
whole bunch of things that depressed people actually feel but it
still is not depression.
Those of you who are
taking umbrage at this, you are not depressed. If you were, you would
not care who called you depressed or called you not-depressed.
Accepting this will help you look for the real problems. What is it
that is setting this feeling that you feel? Look for it. You will
think you have the answer and you will need to find solutions for the
problem. And then BAM, you are still struggling. So you repeat the
process, look for problem, decide possible solutions and perhaps
resolve a part of it.
It is a thankless
process because no one knows or understands that you are actively
working on the problem(s). On the outside, there might not be many
changes or they think you are faking changes. Bugger. You want them
to accept that you are making a difference, that you think you are
doing better and to be supportive. They may even say words of support
but you can't feel honesty in them.
Now is the most
crucial part – you need to forget them and see what is best for
you. Their skepticism, their calling your names, their indifference
should not make you waver in your resolve to get out of the pit you
are in. Your life is for you. If others can be part of you, that is
great. But at the end of the day, you need to be able to think about
yourself with pride.
This has been my
journey. Be kind. If you can't be kind, trust me I will still be kind
to you. I know how much I yearned for kindness and support. I will
always give it to you, no matter what.