Depression, or not

Depression is not kind, depression makes a mockery of you being alive, depression makes you wonder why you are alive but you are too apathetic to do something about your being called alive.

'Depression' has become a badge of honor these days.

Sucks to say this but the fact is that a large percentage of population who call their condition as depression are not really depressed. They may be feeling whole bunch of things that depressed people actually feel but it still is not depression.

Those of you who are taking umbrage at this, you are not depressed. If you were, you would not care who called you depressed or called you not-depressed. Accepting this will help you look for the real problems. What is it that is setting this feeling that you feel? Look for it. You will think you have the answer and you will need to find solutions for the problem. And then BAM, you are still struggling. So you repeat the process, look for problem, decide possible solutions and perhaps resolve a part of it.

It is a thankless process because no one knows or understands that you are actively working on the problem(s). On the outside, there might not be many changes or they think you are faking changes. Bugger. You want them to accept that you are making a difference, that you think you are doing better and to be supportive. They may even say words of support but you can't feel honesty in them.

Now is the most crucial part – you need to forget them and see what is best for you. Their skepticism, their calling your names, their indifference should not make you waver in your resolve to get out of the pit you are in. Your life is for you. If others can be part of you, that is great. But at the end of the day, you need to be able to think about yourself with pride.

This has been my journey. Be kind. If you can't be kind, trust me I will still be kind to you. I know how much I yearned for kindness and support. I will always give it to you, no matter what.